| So I was going through some of my old entries and I noticed allll these things about Jake. And How things USED to be. How amazing things used to be. Why can't we go back. i just don't get it. I just understand why i have to grow up.
I don't want to grow up. I have to grow up. |
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| Why do I insist on getting so attached to people.
Why do people insist on breaking my heart. |
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| can i just say that Paradise Kiss is the shit!!!
I love this anime. |
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| KILL ME NOW.
I'm too bored for life.
I was supposed to go to the mall with Aaron and do some things.
But I have to stay and take care of my dad. |
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| I miss Jake like nobody's business. I do. And I SMILE and i LAUGH all to make myself feel better. I miss him so much it hurts. I lay in the bed just remembering last summer and thinking about how much I miss just it being us. Just having fun without the complication of him being my boyfriend.
Back when we disguised our feelings for eachother with expressions of ignorance.
WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT. WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT.
what happened to him holding me and playing with my hair. With him laughing at how I couldn't catch on. how being with him looking into his face made me smile with bliss.
Even telling you these things would make me choke on my words. Choke on the feelings that suffocated how i really felt. The feelings that made me whole. That made me want you.
Tell Me What Happened To That. |
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